October 26, 2021
I'm not sure what happens when he
goes to bed, but I will reassure anyone
that is reading this blog post that he
does get in to bed fully dressed in his
pyjamas. And yet anytime we go in
to turn off his light, there are the pj's,
thrown to the ground. I think he is
always very hot, even though we keep
the furnace at a minimum. At least he
does get a great sleep! Dressed or not ....
Pics from our Annual Baby Steps Walk to Remember.
Our 2nd virtual format but we so hope for 2022, our
10th year for the Baby Walk, we'll all be back together in
person to remember all our sweet, tiny, precious babies.
My broken heart was full of love on Sunday as we read
out each babies name and rang our bell. Such an honor.
October 25, 2021
Thinking about what words I'll add to
the 2 tattoos I have ~ 1 on each arm,
green for Bretton and purple for Ciara.
Our tattoo artist moved to the Coast
in the Summer. Now we have to find
a new artist. A big task for the right one.
Cloudy and windy this morning but it
is supposed to be super warm and sunny
this afternoon. I'm using this morning
to watch a Palliative Care Conference
and doing paperwork, laundry and a
bit of stretching. Then change in to my
very dusty work clothes and head out
to continue working on landscaping.
I can see the finish line! Almost there.
This time next week, we'll be all done!
What's on tap for you today?
A busy day or a quiet one?
October 22, 2021
There seems to be so much controversy in recent years about their impact on the environment. Anything like this is a concern for me. We have soy candles and buy from local or regional makers. But I have 2 that are a combo of soy and paraffin that I truly love and use on a a limited basis. We do have an air return system as our HVAC and feel confident we aren't impacting our health. My 2 favorites are "Love" ~ the pink one above and in the same brand "Green Apple" ~ a perfect scent for Fall. Often I don't even light them but will open the lid for a quick sniff. I also make my own candles and love the process, though it's quite messy. I'm going to experiment this Winter to see if I can come up with the "Love" and "Green Apple" scents on my own. The Art Studio is going to be busy once the snow flies with dollhouse renos, learning to create art with resin and candle making.
Today is our last day for working on the stone patio and walk way before a big rain sets in tomorrow. Dh has a meeting this morning, so I'm going to head out after my shower to set up for the walk way. Once it's a bit warmer (a blue sky is present and double digits for temps this afternoon), we'll sweep the polymeric sand across the finished patio and then water it gently. It sets up quickly and by the end of the afternoon, we'll have a completed project. For the walk way, we have to take the front steps off, then level the ground underneath, lay down a layer of regular sand, and then start laying out the stone. I hope to have at least the pad down by the end of the day. Tomorrow, we're meeting a contractor at our old house to do a quote on renos there so we can sell, then we're going to my office to set up for an event on Sunday, a quick shopping trip, a visit with my mom, some groceries, then we'll head home. It's supposed to rain all day, so perfect for getting these tasks completed. Tomorrow night, we're off to a hockey game downtown with a dear friend. His company has a sky box that includes a buffet dinner, so we're quite looking forward to a fun night out. Sunday is supposed to be sunny and warm again. Our event is in the afternoon but if it does rain all of Saturday, we may not get any outside work down if the ground is wet. I'll be back at it next week as I still have a few days off from work. Next week looks really nice too.
Do you have big plans for today and
the weekend? Or is it a relaxing time?
October 21, 2021
This week has been so sunny and warm. Perfect weather for getting our stone patio completed, our driveway re~graveled, our Halloween decorations put up and the deck furniture stored away for the Winter. I may even tackle the windows and wash them one more time before the "s" arrives! With all this sun, I managed to capture a few quick shots on my phone of the sunrise hitting our family room this morning. So bright and cozy. I love rainy days but sunny days give me energy just when I need it. A good balance.
Dh sent me a note that Facebook is going to rebrand. What? Dh heard the new name will be "Metaverse." Strange. He commented that on the news report, it was suggested that FB is not performing well in the business world, so it's time for a change. We'll see how it goes. Somedays, I think I should be off Social Media, but there is some value in connecting with family that live far away, opportunities to promote programs to our community and sometimes, a spot for mindless fun. I do limit myself but could probably do even better. I'll figure it out in time. Interesting move.
Today I'm finishing the stonework on the patio, and this afternoon will sweep down the polymeric sand, water it and let it set. While it's setting, I hope to start the front walk. Dh is home tomorrow, so my plan is to have it laid out and ready to go and then we can lay down those bricks, then water and set. Lots of work but so worth the time to finally have a permanent walk vs. a gravel walk way. Fingers crossed we have enough bricks. I'll post photos once it's done.
I'm off to get my work done. Wishing
all of you an amazing, sunny day!
October 20, 2021
This was posted this morning on FB and I grabbed it as it spoke to me in volumes. I am one of those kind souls who has endured repeated hurt and attacks from others, all of my life. It would take a book to outline every single experience. But going back to review just brings up anxiety in my gut. Each has been dealt with, when possible, or buried away if there was no way to deal. These harsh moments have shaped who I am today. So is it worth it to experience the hurt and then move forward? Always at the time, it feels like the worst thing. I mull over every detail, try to tuck the hurt away, pull it out to get rid of it and somewhere along the way, compromise with what to do. Later, I often feel like I've won a war if the individual or experience has managed to not take me down. But it's exhausting and has left me leery about forging new relationships in the future.
A theme has emerged over the years. Some of the hurt I've experienced has come from others who seem intent on taking me down professionally. It's been varied but the message is always the same ~ individuals who are not fans of my eclectic style or literally want to take what I have. This translates to what I've created and continue to provide in community. My work, my volunteer time, my family .... all it at one point has been affected. I'm getting much better at heading it off before it gets big, but in my early years, I was vulnerable to those who were stronger than I was then. At that time, I would really "dislike" the individual but can look back now and realize they were coming from a place of hurt themselves. Or lacking confidence. Whatever their deficit, it's not my path to fix theirs. My responsibility is to not let them stop me from being the kindest soul I can ever be.
Have you had experiences that
have shaped who are you now?
Experiences that came with
great hurt but with great lessons?
October 19, 2021
The view from the laundry room of our
kitchen. I love the homey feeling. It does
kitchen. I love the homey feeling. It does
remind me of my gramma's tiny kitchen,
in her very tiny period styled home. The
aprons hanging on the wall, the colored
cabinets, the wood floors, the recipe book
on the counter. And the bleak end of day
site through the dining room window on
the other side of the butler's pantry. Our
cabinets look quite lime green but they
are actually a light sage. I love how the
lighting at any time through the day can
change the shade and tone of the cabinets.
My favorite room in our family home ....
October 18, 2021
Blogtober: Day 18. Feeling so grateful that we are having a beautiful Fall. We were not able to finish our stone patio project this Summer ~ between the sweltering heat and the aggressive wasps, we felt behind on our landscaping. But we knew in time, the heat would disappear and the wasps would all die. And here we are, with warm weather (though a bit cooler today) and no bugs to chase us off our work site. Today, my dh surprised me and stayed worked from home on my first day of a week off to work outside. And in between his meetings and responsibilities, he helped me haul 900+ bricks from the pallets on the driveway to the patio site. We got at least 450 of them in place and I'm hoping tomorrow to do another 200ish, if the wind isn't too bad. My goal is to have all the bricks in place before Friday so we can lay down the polymeric sand, sweep it in all the cracks and then sprinkle the entire surface with our hose. The sand will set up like cement, keeping weeds and critters from coming up through the cracks. I can't wait for that moment, when it's all dry and we can stand back and feel good that another huge project, likely our largest, will be ticked off the list of landscaping tasks. Brick by brick, project by project, we're getting closer to being finished. So close!
In between our work today, we had lunch, then headed over to the community hall down the highway to vote in our municipal election. We just had a federal election about a month ago (called mid way through the term), so it felt weird to have 2 elections so close together. Once we were done our work this afternoon, I had a lovely, hot shower and dh made us a scrumptious salmon dinner. And now we're relaxing, watching "MAID" until the election results start to come in. Such an amazing series. I hope it continues on beyond this season's episodes. Andi McDowall and her adult daughter Margaret play mother/daughter and they are just perfect in their roles. I'll be sad if it's not a continuing series.
It's half an hour until the polls close.
Time to settle in and watch the results!
October 17, 2021
October 16, 2021
October 15, 2021
Today is International Pregnancy and Infant Loss
Awareness Day. With families around the World,
we will pause to honor and remember all of our
tiny and precious babies who all have died at birth:
Bretton~Elijah Lucas Roberts
Ciara~Rose Kennedi Roberts
Birkley~Finn Kensington Roberts
Cabriola~Ireland Laci Roberts
Cambria~Sage Kassady Roberts
Beau~Harper Levi Roberts
Cree~Raven Lyric Roberts
Bentley~River Kai Roberts
This is a very special day as we are all encouraged
to light a candle @ 7:00 pm in memory of our
baby(ies). In our community, the big bridge will
also be illuminated in pink, blue and white from
dusk until dawn. A truly beautiful "Wave of Light"
from Earth to Heaven. Heartbreaking but also so
heartwarming as we show our love in a very public
way. Magical and breathtaking. But oh so sad ....
October 14, 2021
October 13, 2021
I had a flu bug that took a solid two weeks before I was feeling well. And today, I'm out again. I'm going to work tomorrow and on Saturday, and then I'm taking next week off to try and recover properly. I'll finish up the last bit of our stone patio, put the deck furniture away, move the snowblower from the shed into the garage so it's ready to go, and put piles of leaves on our garden for the Winter to provide some shelter. When dh is home from work, we'll start to work on putting up the Halloween inflatables and make sure all the lights work so we're ready for the 31st. I also have some paperwork to finish up on a few projects. I'm looking forward to having no schedule for a week, resting when I want and working on the above items as I have energy to do so. The weather looks promising so fingers crossed this works out well. It should be a productive week.
Isn't this the most amazing pink wreath? I'm hoping to make one in the Spring for our shed door. Or maybe even the front door. Spring, Summer and Fall are always busy with projects but Winter, I love to dream! I love to plan out what I hope we can plant in the garden. Figure out what's next with our landscaping. Think about how to show gratitude to family and friends at Christmas. Dream about vacation and redo our budget for the new year. Lots and lots of lists! When do you do your best dreaming?
October 12, 2021
October 11, 2021
This weekend across our lovely country of Canada is traditionally for gathering together with family and friends to celebrate Thanksgiving. But with Covid and restrictions, our time together is limited and small. Most people will eat their holiday dinner on Monday but we love to do Sunday so we always have Monday as a day of rest and fun. And time to recover from such a big meal! Our 2nd Covid Thanksgiving with just the 5 of us, making me sad that we can't have everyone over but happy we have our little cohort here. We roasted a small turkey, and added in mashed potatoes, butternut squash, garden peas, savory stuffing, caesar salad, fresh buns, cranberry sauce and turkey gravy. So good! For desert, we had nanamio bars, 2 different kinds of butterscotch confetti so we could settle a debate (vanilla marshmallows vs. fruity ones ~ no difference at all ~ I won!), and tiny pumpkin tarts with whipped cream. Dgs did a funny toast, we noshed and laughed, shared memories and then cleaned up, relaxing for the rest of the evening. It was a beautiful day with rain, blowing leaves, a hockey game that was won by our team with dgs in goal (6 to 3) and resting so we can do some more landscaping today before the snow arrives! This was a lovely weekend and I hope everyone across Canada stayed safe, enjoyed their feast and found something good to to be thankful for in our 2nd Covid year. Happy Thanksgiving! Namaste, my dear blogging buddies!
October 10, 2021
October 9, 2021
If you recall my post from October 3rd, you'll remember I had spotted a sweet vintage cabinet on Marketplace. I sent a note to the seller. But a response did not come. And then the listing was no longer there. It showed she had taken it down. So I felt gutted for a moment but knew that if it wasn't meant to be in our little cottage, that it was not to be ours. Yesterday, 4 days later, I had a few moments between meetings and while sipping my tea, decided to jump on Marketplace to see if I could find a cabinet close to what I had fallen in love with. Can you guess what happened? Yup! There, on the first page, listed a mere 2 minutes before .... the cabinet!! So I quickly wrote to the seller, who had posted that she had deleted it but didn't realize it. She wondered why she wasn't getting any interest and then did a search, only to find it wasn't there. So she reposted it and I had the fortune of being there at the right moment. We conversed a bit, she answered a few questions I had and we made arrangements to pick it up yesterday after work. It was a bit of a drive but so worth it and it was a pretty drive with the leaves blowing across the road in the breeze. The seller was lovely ~ she had even wrapped the 2 glass shelves in bubble wrap so they wouldn't break on the way home. And now, a cabinet I had dreamt off over time, with more detail than I could hope for, is safely stowed away in the turret, waiting for its first coat of paint and the wallpaper to be applied on the back and side walls in the interior. A piece we'll love and cherish for a very long time. I can't believe how well this turned out after I thought I'd have to start my search all over again. Irish luck was on my side, once again!
October 8, 2021
And the winner is ....
Yes, I've decided to go with this office space. I love
the quirky wall juts and the ceiling that slopes. The
art work speaks to me and the cabinet to store all of
my grief materials is lovely. We're now searching for
a smaller desk to fit in here as I don't want space to be
eaten up by a piece of furniture that is functional but
too big. I may swap out the couch and chairs with the
other counselling room just to soften it a bit but they
may grow on me. The one thing that has to go is the
basket of sunflowers. Sweet and they are the symbol
for hospice. But not my style! I'll make this space my
own and happy to finally get settled in this quiet spot.
Today is our day off but it's not going to really be that.
Our contractor is coming over to spread the load of
gravel that will arrive this morning for our patio space
we're creating coming off the big deck. Once he has
the gravel spread out, he'll then measure and measure
and fill in gaps and measure and then tamp it all down.
Then he'll spread the sand that will arrive today as well
and more measuring and tamping and hopefully if all
goes well, by the end of the day, we'll have a sturdy,
level spot to begin to lay down all the bricks we have
lined up on pallets on the driveway. So excited to get
this project done before the snow arrives. He's also
going to smooth out our front walk so that water does
not pool anymore if it rains for 3 days ~ rare but it does
happen a few times each Summer. Then he'll create a
little dry river bed for us for our sump pump. And his
last task will be to regrade and smooth out our drive.
Not sure those last two things will happen this weekend
but he's pretty fast, so we'll see how it goes. He's lovely
so far and we hope to use him in the future as we need
things down around here that don't fit in our capacity.
I like having trades we can both trust and call as needed.
It's Thanksgiving this weekend here in sunny Canada.
Looking forward to a lovely time and lots of turkey!
October 7, 2021
A cold, frosty October morning and this made the fog
appear, which made driving interesting in a few spots.
Down in the river valley, with the mist from the river,
there was thick fog that made every one drive super
slow. I love mornings like this. Makes me thing of the
moors in England and old movies. A beautiful sight!
October 6, 2021
I still have to write about the wedding. It's hard
to believe a short month ago, we were out at the
sea, watching our eldest son marry his love. And
now they are on their tropical honeymoon, having
a great time together! A funny photo for today. My
shoe kept getting stuck in the long grass at the site.
High heels and grass don't mix well but did make
for a great photo on the big wedding day. Enjoy!
October 5, 2021
October 4, 2021
A beautiful but chilly Monday morning. I'm home from work, trying to still recover from this nasty virus. I was able to get in to the clinic yesterday. Three Covid tests in the last week and all negative ~ so very relieved as it was scary having symptoms that are so close to the beginnings of what many have experienced. Thankful and blessed today that as awful as I feel, it's just a virus ~ a bit of fluid in my chest, ear infections and swollen lymph nodes, fever and I hurt everywhere. But NO Covid! Now I'm on a steriods to get things under control. Fingers crossed this works well soon.
Isn't that the prettiest sight ~ sun in the cottage. I posted a similar photo the other day but this one is even better. I'll never get tired of this view. One of my favorites each day.
By accident, I let a wasp in to the cottage this morning. It ended up tangling itself up in the lace curtains. The buzzing was starting to get to me and as allergic as I am, it had to go. I wrapped the lace around and around, until it was nice and stuck. I was going to leave it like that until dh got home but was worried I would not relax the rest of the day, thinking it would escape. So I did the only thing I could .... whacked it with my phone. I'm pretty sure he/she/it is dead now! Kind of proud of myself for taking care of a not so great situation. Now I can resume my perch on the couch, in my blankies, working on work stuff so I don't get behind.
How is your day going?
Is it sunny where you live?