Blogtober: Day 27.

After our annual gala for baby loss, we meet to

share our thoughts on the event. I love hearing

how everyone enjoyed the event, and hearing

the final numbers and outcomes. This year, we

took some time to also tie little tags to the bears

for an upcoming market where shoppers can

buy bears in memory of a very precious baby.

A heartfelt way to support the event and others.

After the tasks were all done, we enjoyed a

lovely meal together. Good company, amazing

conversation, new ideas for next year and new

energy for the busy weeks ahead of us. Bravo!

~ Chy

Ciara~Rose Kennedi.

Our 3rd daughter. Our 6th child.

Our 2nd stillbirth. Our love.

~ Chy

Bretton~Elijah Lucas.

Our 3rd son. Our 5th child.

Our 1st stillbirth. Our love.

~ Chy

Cupcakes of Love.

Homemade cupcakes to remember our sweet, tiny

baby. She would have loved the color and the treat!

~ Chy

May Memorial.

Each May, we gather to remember our sweet and

precious babies. We support families and increase

awareness about baby loss in our community. It's

a beautiful day full of sorrow and hope, memories

and love. We share names, stories, written words

that are buried. And tea before we head out to the

cemetery. This year, we started out with a beautiful

day but later on, a huge storm rolled in. Memorable.

~ Chy

Sweet Baby ....

Tonight, you would have been 25 years

old. Instead, you remain a tiny being in

our broken hearts, safe with your big

brother and little siblings in Heaven,

watched over by your grandparents and

other cherished loved ones. Forever a

baby with everyone who thinks of you,

but all grown up in our dreams. Every day,

we live so you know how loved and

dearly remembered you are, sweet baby.

Happy Birthday Ciara~Rose Kennedi.

Love, mom, dad, all the kids, their

partners and our sweet grand babies

Grieving Candles.

Last Sunday, on a warm and sunny afternoon, we

gathered with other baby loss and child loss grieving

families for our 24th Annual Candle Light Memorial

Service in our community. It was a beautiful event,

but so hard with tears, stories and candles. So many

lights glowing for each of our little ones. We came

home after all was done and at 7 pm, we joined in on

the World Wide Gathering, called a "Wave of Light."

The idea is that around the World, in every time zone

for 24 hours, our babies and children can see the

lights we've lit for them. To show our love. To shine.

A special day, a heartfelt night full of continued love.

~ Chy

Ciara~Rose Kennedi.

Tonight @ 8:02 pm you would have been turning 24 years old. You were born and died all in a moment that crashed our world once again. It was a quiet birth at home, full of hope, then sorrow. We never got to truly know who you would have been. We can only guess you would have had Chelsea's determination and her big sister caring compassion, Brady's beautiful blue eyes and his artistic nature, Brodie's curly hair and his musical talents, Chynna's empathy and her mischevious soul, your daddy's wit and his terrible jokes, and my creativity and feisty Irish temper. You would of course been your own unique individual, with bits of each of us within you. You would have loved and been loved. 

Today, we celebrate you on our own, in our own love filled space, in our way .... with a pretty rose from our little garden that we'll preserve to remember this day, and a tiny flowered cake. We'll chat, and laugh, and cry on this special day.  Love you to the moon and back Ciara~Rose Kennedi. 

Love, Mama

Unique Workshop.

On April 5th, my dear partner in our baby

loss program and I will be facilitating a

new workshop series that we're calling

"Dreams Interrupted." The audience will

be families who have been touched by the

loss of a precious baby during pregnancy

or any time after birth. I'm so excited for

this brand new series as we've become really

good at presenting events and unique offers

for support. Can't wait to deliver this event!

~ Chy

Tiny Bretton.

Our sweet and tiny baby boy was born

still on March 25th, 1996. Yesterday,

he would have turned 26 years old if

he was still with us. Each year, we do

honor his birthday with a sweet cake

and a candle, and we spend time with

his precious items that show his short

time in our lives. His death created a

change in our lives and we now view

this as a gift. A change for myself in

my career path and a change for us in

how we view the World. A sweet gift.

Bretton~Ellijah Lucas will always be our

tiniest son and he will be forever loved.

~ Chy

Candle Lighting,

Last Sunday, we presented our annual

baby loss/child loss candle lighting.

It is on the same day and time as the

Worldwide Candle Lighting. Such a

special gathering, even though we had

to do in a virtual format again. Truly

hope next year we can all be back in

person, with heart, hugs, love and light.

~ Chy

Blogtober: Day 24.

Pics from our Annual Baby Steps Walk to Remember.

Our 2nd virtual format but we so hope for 2022, our

10th year for the Baby Walk, we'll all be back together in

person to remember all our sweet, tiny, precious babies. 

My broken heart was full of love on Sunday as we read

out each babies name and rang our bell. Such an honor.

~ Chy

Blogtober: Day 15.

Today is International Pregnancy and Infant Loss

Awareness Day. With families around the World,

we will pause to honor and remember all of our

tiny and precious babies who all have died at birth:

Bretton~Elijah Lucas Roberts

Ciara~Rose Kennedi Roberts

Birkley~Finn Kensington Roberts

Cabriola~Ireland Laci Roberts

Cambria~Sage Kassady Roberts

Beau~Harper Levi Roberts

Cree~Raven Lyric Roberts

Bentley~River Kai Roberts

This is a very special day as we are all encouraged

 to light a candle @ 7:00 pm in memory of our

baby(ies). In our community, the big bridge will

also be illuminated in pink, blue and white from

dusk until dawn. A truly beautiful "Wave of Light"

from Earth to Heaven. Heartbreaking but also so

heartwarming as we show our love in a very public

way. Magical and breathtaking. But oh so sad ....

~ Chy

Remembering Bretton~Elijah.

Tiny toes.

Mommy holding space.

Christmas candles.

Garden angels.

Birthday cake and his teddies.

Mommy and daddy at our Walk to Remember.

Twenty five years ago yesterday, on March 25th, 1996, we said hello and then goodbye to our sweet, precious baby Bretton~Elijah Lucas. He was and is our 5th child, our 3rd son and we miss him to the moon and back. Bretton was to be born at home but when I went in to labor in the middle of the night, far too early, we headed to the hospital at our midwife's urging. We were lovingly cared for but he was too tiny and that began our baby loss journey. Many will say that "time heals" but we know from our own experience that "time helps" but does not heal. We are proud to be Bretton's family and know that our legacy projects to help other baby loss families with our Centre and our programs is worth the time and effort. But every day, more than ever now, we do wish for him to be back in our arms, a grown up young man with a world of possibilities ahead of him, like his siblings. Bretton~Elijah Lucas. Remembered with love and tears, cupcakes and gifts, candles and memories. Gone too soon, loved and held in our hearts forever, never forgotten. 

With love and memory,

Mommy