Cozy at Home.

A day that was to be sunny and warm started out warm, without sun, then turned bitterly cold .... again! We have another week of this and then it's supposed to warm up quite a bit. Not "melt the snow" kind of weather. More like "cold but no longer bitter" kind of weather. We'll see.

We trekked down the lane to take our garbage bins and recycling to the road, picked up our mail and then headed down to our neighbors. They had farm fresh eggs for us and we had a kids chair and a bag of clothes for their little ones. A great exchange and a lovely visit. The rest of the day was filled with laundry, work tasks, chatting with my staff from preschool about the week, then chatting via email with my other staff to set up the week at hospice. School has been delayed by a week, so lots to figure out. The numbers have increased again and now we're all back to square one again. Not quite but feels like it. Ugh! We need this virus to stop!!

A busy week ahead but now I'll be working at home for a good chunk of it. Dh is still off as well and we'll get a lot done. I hope our weather does turn soon so we can get out of the cottage more. It's so lovely to be cozy in our sweet place. But also nice to be outside and we're missing that at the moment. Soon .... until then, we'll cherish this time.

Hope you had an amazing weekend

and your week ahead is filled with hope.

~ Chy

Am I the Only One?

I chose a graphic image today to show the feelings I have racing through my body. But it won't load to my page. A full moon is clearly wreaking havoc with my electronics .... and my ability to sleep. I'll add it later.

My big question of the day .... Am I the Only One? The Only One worried that there is a threat of a war and yet no one around me seems worried. Everyone has continued on with their lives, even joking about the two leaders who seem intent on changing the course of history with their words and their threatened actions. So why are we NOT doing anything? I can't sleep. My stomach is in knots. I don't dare turn on the tv for fear of a "breaking news" image to cross the screen. I keep busy and try to distract myself. But it's not working. Last night, we were at a meeting with our theatre company. I tried so hard to be my sweet self, cracked a few one liners that made the room laugh. But deep inside, my body is held in a fearful state. They are planning our show for next years festival. I'm wondering if we should take the lobster out of the freezer and eat it now .... do we have days left? Weeks? Months? Will this happen? If it does, are we safe where we live? It's all speculation now but what if it becomes real? What if one of them gives the go ahead? I want to see my grand babies grow. I've love to be a great gramma like my gramma and my mom both got to be. I want to take a cruise. And travel through Europe. I want to grow my first veggie patch. And organize the garage better. I want to publish my book. And visit my little island one more time. Do I quit my job? Do I write my memoirs? What do I do? What will you do?

My Dilemma ....

I finally finished taking the glass out of the vintage window I've been working on. It was quite a job, with lots of scraping and picking. And a tiny bit of swearing when I snagged my finger on the edge of the glass. That was very sharp! Thankfully, out of three pieces, two are still intact. With all the pieces out, I'm quite excited about all the possibilities of what I can do with this. The biggest dilemma I know have is not what to actually do with it (I have tons of idea .... thank you Pinterest!!) but do I paint it first or leave it raw? I'm scared I'll regret painting it and then have to scrape the paint off. And I'm scared I'll leave it raw and wish it had color. Ugh. I'm never good at making decisions. Once I make one, then I never go back nor do I have any regrets. Technically, it's just getting to the decision that causes me all the grief and worry. Silly, I know. I'm sharing here in case anyone has an opinion  ....

Would you paint this piece and scuff it up a bit?

Or leave it raw and just decorate it as planned?

Phew!!

You know when you have a worry that is so big, it affects your sleep, your mood, your every day life and it feels like there is nothing you can do, except face it head on? Yup, that kind of worry! Well, that was me with a particular worry. But today, some relief and a collective "phew" was part of our vocabulary today. The worry was real, the solution out of our hands but today, in our favor. While waiting for a couple of guests today to arrive at our house to go over the worry and see what could be done, I kept very busy. Cleaning the house from top to bottom, spending time on some projects for work, paying bills, writing, setting aside some sewing that needs to be completed, washing tiles in the kitchen, making lists, reorganizing the pantry, starting some laundry, cleaning out the fridge, answering emails and calls, deciding what to make for dinner and finally, taking some time just for me to unwind after our worry became full of hope and promise. A great ending to a very stressful time. 

Have you had any big worries lately?

What do you do to cope with the stress?

Worries ....

On top of a full moon, this week has been a

week of worries. So many things to sort through.

I don't even know where to start to get it laid

out so I can start with one worry and fix it.

Worrying makes me anxious and tired. I just

want to sleep and not wake up without a knot

in my stomach. Where is the worry fairy, who,

with a wave of her wand, could take it all away??

What kinds of things do you worry about?

How do you cope when worry becomes so big?