August 10, 2017
Am I the Only One?
I chose a graphic image today to show the feelings I have racing through my body. But it won't load to my page. A full moon is clearly wreaking havoc with my electronics .... and my ability to sleep. I'll add it later.
My big question of the day .... Am I the Only One? The Only One worried that there is a threat of a war and yet no one around me seems worried. Everyone has continued on with their lives, even joking about the two leaders who seem intent on changing the course of history with their words and their threatened actions. So why are we NOT doing anything? I can't sleep. My stomach is in knots. I don't dare turn on the tv for fear of a "breaking news" image to cross the screen. I keep busy and try to distract myself. But it's not working. Last night, we were at a meeting with our theatre company. I tried so hard to be my sweet self, cracked a few one liners that made the room laugh. But deep inside, my body is held in a fearful state. They are planning our show for next years festival. I'm wondering if we should take the lobster out of the freezer and eat it now .... do we have days left? Weeks? Months? Will this happen? If it does, are we safe where we live? It's all speculation now but what if it becomes real? What if one of them gives the go ahead? I want to see my grand babies grow. I've love to be a great gramma like my gramma and my mom both got to be. I want to take a cruise. And travel through Europe. I want to grow my first veggie patch. And organize the garage better. I want to publish my book. And visit my little island one more time. Do I quit my job? Do I write my memoirs? What do I do? What will you do?